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Pot Stirrer: Montaya

 



Hey hey....I am Taya!   I am a mother of 3, two toddlers I gave birth to and a Stepson.  I have been in a relationship for the last six years with the same man and it has proven to test me in more ways than one.  Eventually, I ran into the ultimate test, I found out that he had cheated.  After 6 years of playing Mother Goose to the kids and him this was one HELL of a blow to my ego, my confidence, my security and my heart 

Eventually after MULTIPLE sit downs and a couple moments of making him go to his moms and sleeping on the couch, begging & standing up as a man and accepting his fate....I decided I would give him a chance to fix what he messed up.  Now in the midst of all of this happening things were started being revealed to me about me.  The worst was I realized I had forgotten all about Me. Who was I? So caught up in being mommy, spouse, a maid, a teacher, a lover etc that I forgot all about me.  I wasn't doing anything for myself, taking care of myself, dressing up or even trying to look cute, not for him, but just for me.  I had completely lost myself.  

My mother always told me, "Taya, you can't love someone else and not love yourself.  Take care of you and do for you, and if he is a good man, he will follow your lead."  It's amazing how one situation can teach you alot of different things, not only about someone else but yourself.  I had completely lost control of myself, my spirit and almost my mind.  I decided to take that control back immediately.  I have been on a spiritual, physical, & emotional Journey just to find myself again.  I admit I'm not done with this journey but I can finally see the light at the end of the tunnel.  I feel the strength 💪🏾 in my mind and body and the growth and security in my spirit.  Ladies, especially my ladies who are mommies...we give so much of ourselves in these relationships, with the kids, the house, work, etc.  But take time to pause and give to yourself, because losing yourself sucks and it's hard to come back.  It's okay to put yourself first 🙂 It's okay to focus on you.  Don't let anyone or anything stop you.


So yes, with a relationship comes all kind of challenges, struggles, pains, lessons.  I decided to take this challenge and learn the lessons within it.  Yes for us but alot for myself.  It gets tough but with God, & spiritual guidance 🙏🏾 We are more powerful than we know.  Something I've learned 😌
Keep Stirring Sis,
-Montaya

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